9/11 poem; WHERE WAS GOD IN ALL OF THIS?

WHERE WAS GOD IN ALL OF THIS? First of all, God was trying to discourage anyone from taking this flight. Those four flights together held over 1000 passengers and there was only 266 aboard. God was on 4 commercial flights giving terrified passengers the ability to stay calm. Not one of the family members who was called by a loved one on one of the high-jacked planes said that passengers were screaming in the background. On one of the flights God was giving strength to passengers to try toovertake the highjackers. God was busy trying to create obstacles for employees at the World Trade Center. After all only around 20,000 were at the towers when the first jet hit. Since the buildings hold over 50,000 workers, this was a miracle in itself. How many of the people who were employed at the WTC told the media that they were late for work or they had traffic delays? God was holding up 2-110 story buildings so that 2/3 of the workers could get out. It was so amazing that the top of the towers didn't topple when the jets impacted. God was in the rescue workers who were running into the buildings as most people were running out. God was in the flight attendant who called her husband as her plane was being hijacked to tell him that she loved him. God was in the two men who carried a wheelchair-bound woman down 70 flights of stairs to safety. God was in the people who stood bleeding, in line to give blood. God was in the strangers in cars, picking up strangers stranded in the city and taking them home to their families. God is in the people who are begging to volunteer, to do anything to help. God is in the thousands, if not millions who are flooding blood banks thousands of miles away to help people they have never met. God is in the people who are comforting someone even when they don't know what to say. God is in the people who watched and cried for people who may remain anonymous in name, but never in their sacrifice. God is in my neighborhood where I see flags waving from every home. God is in the men and women, looking at 110 stories of rubble, and seeing only the opportunity to find survivors. God is with the heroes, most of whom will never be on the news, whose stories will only be told to their closest friends and family; but who saved someone's mother, father, sister, brother, daughter, son, husband,wife, grandmother, grandfather, aunt, uncle, cousin, lover, colleague, acquaintance, teacher, mentor or friend with a single act of kindness, compassion and bravery. God was not in the hearts of the people that caused these inhumane events. However, God was indeed there, where he was needed the most. -Author Unknown-

this is my new mantra...

nuf said!

nothing better than a baby's laughter....

tonight I laid in bed with karsen after a hectic day and sang a new song I wrote for him. he lit up like a christmas tree... honestly, grinned from ear to ear and then... for the first time... he laughed. deep down, belly laugh. I used my chin on his neck and chest area and sort of nuzzled him... he melted. oooh, karsen is going to be a sensitive little softy, I can just tell.
sooo excited to finally be reading my book on 'the spirited child'. just a nice way of saying 'your little hellion'! it's just, i'm realizing now that i was making classic mistakes, and now i'm aware and find myself looking over myself and observing me. one of the main things is getting back to time outs. and giving positive praise out of the blue, not sandwiching it between criticism, just good 'ol positive praise. well, she ate it up with a spoon! she was so happy to be told i was proud of her and she was she good at getting on the potty all by herself, and getting dressed, and buckling herself in the carseat, etc. this was all while eating an orange popsicle. she had just woken up from a nap, but she grinned from ear to ear.
there is so much love in this house...

This time is for real...

ok, truth be told, I have started multiple blogs. the reason I have not kept up with it? forgot my password..... pretty stupid I know. but that's what happens when you have kids- they turn your brain to mush. but now, this is saved as a favorite, so I have no excuse!
few things this blog will be used for:

1. record important events, post pics, etc. for my family/friends and for me to remember these beautiful, crazy, hectic times.
   
2. post my scrapbook, altered art in hopes of one day being published
3. since I am awful at journlaling in my notebook maybeI can be more diligent about this.
4. lastly I have seen the early signs of some mild post partum.... I don't want to be on anti-depressants. I want to be proactive and open up about all this. being a mom to two kids is a challenge and I am proud of myself and all my accomplishments!

God's Grace (among the chaos)

I love what god's grace means and I have always loved the way my mom's mother would express "there but for the grace of god go I." I had heard it so many times but never fully understood it as it is a rather profound idea of god's amazing love for us. anytime she would see an individual with special needs, she would first thank god and then say, "there but for the grace of god go I." what she meant was it was god's grace that she was not stricken with a disability or other challenge. It was not because her parents had paid money, prayed harder or loved god more that she wasn't challenged in some way. It was simply god's grace. so, my blog is titled to remember that among all the chaos in my life, I am still reminded, grateful and blessed for god's grace.

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